A Hospital Stay, A Fall and An Anniversary – All During A Pandemic

I’m a worrier. Always have been. I get it from my grandmother. And my mother. I come from a long line of worriers.

Most of the time – actually usually almost all of the time, my worries never amount to anything except for my wasted time and a lot of unnecessary anxiety.

Recently though, I experienced my worst case scenario.

In the midst of this pandemic, my husband got sick. He is sent to the emergency room where they find that his gallbladder is infected and about three times its normal size. They need to operate to remove it, but before that can happen, the gallbladder needs to chill out, so to speak. That will take up to 6 weeks.

Because of the pandemic and safety protocol, I could not go into the hospital with my husband. So I spent many hours in the car in the hospital parking lot. Which was both nerve wracking because I didn’t know what was happening or what kind of care my husband was getting. It also was entertaining: I watched a woman back out of a parking spot, with the hatch on her vehicle open and drive off. I still wonder how far she got. Hopefully she didn’t figure out it was open when she tried parking it in her garage. And yes, I supposed I should have waived her down but I was right in the middle of a rosary for my husband and let’s face it, I was not thinking clearly.

My husband was hospitalized for 3 nights. Thank God for iPhones. That was how we were able to communicate.

My week last week, after he was finally discharged was all about his care. Making sure he took his medication on time. Making sure his appointments were scheduled. Making sure he was eating and drinking properly. (I’m sure he would have loved to be drinking). Making sure that the doctors orders were followed and also driving him to his appointments.

Also last week, we celebrated our 26th wedding anniversary. This anniversary looked so different from last year. Our 25th was celebrated in Hawaii.

My view on our 25th wedding anniversary last year.

The hospital parking lot was what I saw this year, on our 26th anniversary. I couldn’t help but think, “just one year ago we were in a completely different situation.”

My view on our 26th wedding anniversary in 2020.

My mind goes to weird places. Especially now during this time. A few weeks ago, before the gallbladder situation gave any indication it might happen, a thought passed through my mind about what if one of us has to go to the hospital? That’s the absolute worst place to be. It would be the end. (Spoiler alert: it wasn’t.)

The afternoon that my husband and I returned home from a check at the hospital, a nurse at my mom’s retirement home called to let me know that my mom had a little fall.

I haven’t been able to physically spend time with my mom since early March. The last time we were together was March 11th. So when the nurse called to let me know that mom fell, I thought, “this is the worse possible time for this to happen.” And I literally looked at my husband, after I hung up the phone, and said, “what else can possibly happen? I can’t take any more.” Then I got myself up, began calling her doctor and ordering some items for her from Amazon and strategizing with her nurses to make mom as comfortable as possible and to do whatever was needed.

By the way, my mom is doing okay. It was indeed a little fall. Nothing was broken and no concussion. She’s still sore and I’m pretty sure she has reactivated her sciatica but it could have been much worse.

In the middle of all of this I had a very, very minor procedure taken care of at my doctors office. And a mammogram that had to be done at, guess where, the hospital. Worst possible time for all of this, I thought. But then, when I arrived at the hospital, I saw a couple, clearly checking in to give birth to their baby. They were well prepared. A large suitcase, overnight bag, backpack, cooler and the car seat for the baby. The couple was smiling (I can tell when someone is smiling under their face masks – their eyes crinkle) and they radiated so much hope.

Today when I was out driving around, I drove past the hospital and the doctors office. I said a thank you and was grateful that I did not have any appointments or plans at either one of them this week.

The next day, I got this email from the Universe:

I really needed to hear that. So what miracles reached me during this time? First, I was relatively calm during this time. I felt like time had slowed down for me and I could move through these two crises slowly and mindfully.

The couple checking into the hospital to give birth to their baby. Had I not been scheduled for my yearly mammogram at the hospital (which in my mind was one of the worst places I could be during this pandemic) I never would have been able to see or feel their joy and hope. That gave me the shift in perspective that I needed to move ahead myself in hope.

What did I specifically do to make it through this time? I’ll share all of that with you. I’m sure you may be going through a difficult time, have gone through it or will go through it in the future. So take what I did as a template for you to use but remember this – you do you. What works for you. What your soul is yearning for. Do that.

  • I got as much rest as I possibly could. When I was tired, I napped. I went to bed earlier. Sometimes it was really difficult to do this but I kept saying to myself – you need to rest.
  • Me and God, we talked a lot. I had full on conversations with the guy. That was helpful.
  • I got outside. I got to feel the warm sunshine on my skin, breathe the fresh air and watch the animals.
A new family I met on my adventure outside.
  • I surprised myself. With my husband in the hospital, some of his household duties became my household duties. And a few I wasn’t sure I could do by myself. But guess what? I did! That felt powerful.
  • Angel cards. One of my Polkadot Powerhouse sisters recommended that I get a deck of cards. These cards allow me to have some fun connecting with God and his incredibly beautiful universe.
  • I asked for help. I reached out to family and friends to let them know what was happening. I asked questions that I just didn’t have the answers to.
  • I journaled. There were so many thoughts and feelings coming up for me during this time, that getting them out of my head and my heart were so therapeutic. I honestly feel lighter after I journal.
  • I kept busy and moved forward. Even if it was just to fold the towels and put them away.

What I learned through this entire upheaval is this: I made it through my worse case scenario. It wasn’t pretty at times. It didn’t go like I had thought it would. But I made it through.

I learned that sometimes throwing a tantrum and asking what the hell could possibly happen next and actually losing my shit is okay.

I learned that I can say when I’m hurting and when I’m upset. That is the way to heal.

What has been your worst case scenario? What did you do to make it through to the other side?

❤️Coach Wendy

P.S. If you are looking to connect with others who are searching for connection, community and solutions, I invite you to join my Facebook Group – Life on Purpose.

Strategies to thrive in this time of uncertainty

During this time of upheaval and anxiety, I’ve been talking with individuals who are feeling isolated, can’t think straight and are looking for strategies to empower themselves through my Lunchtime Zoom.

I wanted to share with you the three big takeaways from the previous Lunchtime Zoom: 

  1. There are a lot of pluses coming out of this. 
  2. Your mind is going to be different. You are going to be changed. You’ve learned to appreciate the things that you can’t do now.
  3. There are no rules to this game. There is no right or wrong answer right now. 

We also identified some strategies to help us all to move forward:

  • That it is more than okay to be sad and have a meltdown.
  • Anxiety can be lessened with laughter.
  • To take care of yourself and do what you need for you.
  • To keep busy. I’ve never raked so many leaves in my life!
  • And yet……Not to overwhelm yourself with getting things done and accomplishing so much.
  • Call a friend and chill for a while.
  • I’m going to start journaling about this.
  • We would never think that we were in a situation like this and the only thing we could think to do was to laugh about it.
  • Don’t apologize or feel bad for having a meltdown. 

Our topic was Thriving in this time of Uncertainty. We shined a light on what we were experiencing. When you shine a light and call it out of the darkness, that particular struggle lessens its power over you: 

Our Fears & Challenges: 

🔦Lasts – the last time you hugged someone, the last time you went to dinner. 

🔦When I stop and let my mind go places it shouldn’t, you can get into panic mode really fast. 

🔦The grocery shopping thing. Thinking that i’m going to run out of something. The mask, gloves, wipe the cart, do I have my list? We also looked at the good that had come out of this situation. 

The gifts that have come from this crisis:

❤️Focusing on what I’m really here for. 

❤️Been able to tackle some more projects. 

❤️Not dealing with sports schedules and other things. 

❤️Richer relationships.

If during this time you are feeling lonely and bored, in a panic or are just plain melting down – I want to tell you that you are not alone in this.  

To that end, I am extending an invitation to you to join me along with those just like you, looking to find clarity, community and a space to talk about transition.

You can click here to register for my Lunchtime Zooms.   We meet each Monday at 12 Noon CST to have conversation, empower one another and offer massive compassion to one another so that we can all come out of this quiet isolation thriving.  

Click here to register https://coach-wendy.com/lunchtime-zooms.html

Join us on Zoom on Monday at 12 Noon, CST!  Click here to register 

💗Coach Wendy

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I’ve been remembering my Grandmother Ethel lately. Actually, since the news of this virus began.

I’ve been thinking about her because I can remember how in a crisis she was always so steady. Grandma Ethel was the calmest person I knew when the shit hit the fan.

In her almost 99 years walking this earth (Grandma passed exactly one month before she turned 99) she had lived through many crises. The Depression, Scarlett fever, WWI, Spanish flu, disco. (Had to put a little humor in this). I’m not sure how she handled those crises because obviously I wasn’t around, well I was for disco. What I do know is that the crises that arose when I was around, she handled with a steadiness and confidence that calmed our family.

Grandma Ethel is the woman perched atop the lion. Fearless.

During each crisis, Grandma Ethel stayed well informed about what was happening, but didn’t let the news shake her. She just kept moving forward. Taking care of what needed to be done and she stood strong in knowing that, “this too shall pass.” And it always did.

I’ve decided to follow her lead during this crisis. This too shall pass. I’ll keep moving forward.

What I refuse to do is to be a slave to the news. I’ll keep informed, of course but I won’t let it enslave me.

So far, in the last few days, I’ve been enjoying the slower pace of life. Breathing the fresh outdoor air and of course, watching movies & television shows I haven’t seen in years. (Dawson’s Creek, anyone?)

I’ve also been texting with my mother and sending her links to funny videos. We are going to work on communicating over FaceTime soon, too, since her retirement community is on lockdown for all of the residents’ protection.

Steady. Calm. Focused forward. This too shall pass.

💗Coach Wendy

P.S.  If you are looking for community and connection during this time, I invite you to join my private FB group Life-On Purpose.  

This is a community of individuals who are seeking to live their lives authentically and purposefully.  Join us!

What if You Visualized Your Future?

For my client Carolyn, this was the most challenging step to becoming the person she always knew she could be.  

She never looked at what the future could look like.  She was stuck in a rut.  She did the same thing, day in and day out.  And never questioned it.  She never once thought that life could be different.

She wanted a different life.  Carolyn wanted friends.  She wanted to get out and do things that made her happy.  She wanted to look forward to her life.

When I asked her what the future looked like, she couldn’t say.  When I asked her what next week looked like, she couldn’t say.  Even the next day was tough for her to visualize.

Visualization is like a muscle.  When you don’t use it, it gets flabby.  

When you use it, it gets strong and you can visualize your future.  What I know is when you do this, when you visualize your future – be it a day or a week or a year from now – and you visualize yourself in a better place than you are now, you get more of that.  That’s the way it works.

It took some time for Carolyn to strengthen her visualization muscle, but once she did, things began to happen.  She found a group of friends.  She began traveling to watch her favorite baseball team – something she hadn’t done since she was a child.  Finally, she was invited to travel to Italy with a group.  She went!

Visualization is powerful.

What are you visualizing?

You can walk the same success as my client Carolyn.  Just click here to grab your copy of 5 Steps to Become the Person You Always Knew You Could Become.

Enjoy your journey.

❤️ Coach Wendy

P.S.  If you are looking for community and connection, I invite you to join my private FB group Life-On Purpose.  

This is a community of individuals who are seeking to live their lives authentically and purposefully AND happily.  Join us!

What is the Purpose of Having the Flu?

Have you ever woken up one day, having totally recovered from, oh let’s say, the flu with a new zest for life? The flowers are blooming, the sun is shining and you feel like dancing zest for life?

It’s not just me, is it?

Over the years, and over the course of those years suffering from bouts with the flu, a bad head cold, earache or bronchitis, I’ve often experienced the feeling of a reboot after recovering from these ailments.

What if the purpose of having the flu is actually to make us more mindful and appreciate our lives even more?

I’m getting pretty philosophical here, right?

What do you think is the purpose of having the flu?  Head on over to my private FB Group – Life-On Purpose and let us know your thoughts on this deep question.

Good health to you!  Or…………maybe a reboot to you?

❤️Coach Wendy

P.S.  If you are looking for community and connection, I invite you to join my private FB group Life-On Purpose.  

This is a community of individuals who are seeking to live their lives authentically and purposefully AND happily.  Join us!

What is my Purpose?

I don’t feel like I have a purpose beyond parenting.”

“I’m sad, half-way through life.

These are just a few of the struggles that my client Elsie shared with me.

When my client Ellie first reached out to me, she wanted to know who she was, to be successful, to have more than her parents and for her children to grow up being confident.

She felt uncertainty and worry.

Ellie was tired of working a job that she really doesn’t like.

She was tired of not taking action and of just existing.

Ellie wanted something to call her own, to help people and form relationships.

She wanted an identity, confidence, a happier house and a happier marriage.  Her vision was to do what she loves, spend quality time with her children and husband, creating memories.

She said that when this exists, her life will be enjoyable, there will be an abundance of happiness, she will be helping others, and she will be free.

Does this resonate with you?  Are you ready to experience the same results?

Imagine finally having something to call your own and knowing your life purpose.  Being confident and doing what you love.

What would that experience mean for you?

Learn more here

❤️Coach Wendy

P.S.  If you are looking for community and connection, I invite you to join my private FB group Life-On Purpose.  This is a community of individuals who are seeking to live their lives authentically and purposefully AND happily.  Join us!

What If You Were Thriving…Instead of Just Surviving.

Recently, I found myself walking down the same street I walked years ago, when I was employed by someone else.  Ugh.  Being in that space, on that street, brought me right back to where I was those many years ago.  And where I was – was a mess.  I hated my job.  I was nervous and anxious all of the time because I was so worried that I wasn’t doing this job, that I hated, right.  I was scared to death to make a mistake.

That’s literally all I thought about during those years.  Who’s going to yell at me now?  Because trust me, it was a weekly if not daily occurrence.  My confidence was in the toilet.  And because that’s all I was focused on, I can see now, that I got more of it.  You know what you know.  When you know better, you do better.  I think either Maya Angelou or Oprah Winfrey said something like that.  Of course, in that moment, and in that space, I did not know this.  Now that I do know better……….I’m sharing my insight with you.

Looking back now, I’m wondering, why did I care?  Why was I so anxious and scared?  It didn’t frigging matter.  It was a sucky job and I did not belong there.  So I left.  And that was scary.  What would have been even scarier, though, would have been staying.

Once I left, I began to shift out of survival mode.  I began to calm down and think about myself.  Which was a foreign concept because up to that point in my life, I only thought of others first.  Always.  Back then, beginning to think of myself and then giving myself permission to take care of myself – what is this concept?  At first I thought I was being selfish.  Looking at where I am now, I always take care of myself first.  I have found that when I don’t, I do not have the energy or the love to give to others.

Anyway, back to walking down this street, present tense……..I realized that I was completely different.  I am smiling, happy and very, very grateful for the woman I have become.  I am now choosing to be in this space.  I am choosing the people that I am spending my time with. I am thriving, not surviving.

Does this sound familiar?  Do you feel like you are in survival mode?  I have a secret to tell you – you can change that!  I know this to be true because I did it.  

What does thriving look like to you?  What needs to happen in order for you to thrive?

❤️Coach Wendy

P.S.  If you are looking for community and connection, I invite you to join my private FB group Life-On Purpose.  This is a community of individuals who are seeking to live their lives authentically and purposefully AND happily.  Join us!

What if You Weren’t Afraid of Dying?

I recently met a client at a coffee shop who lives locally.

We had a great conversation, although I knew he was holding something back.

He shared that he wasn’t afraid of anything except dying. I asked him why he was afraid of dying.

“Leaving my family and not knowing how they will turn out.” Meaning his children and grandchildren.

I asked him, “What if you weren’t afraid of dying?” Big gasp of air, leans back in his chair, hand over mouth. I can see that my question is shaking some thoughts and feelings loose. And of course, that was my intention.

He says, “That’s a big question.” Yes, it certainly is.  I pushed on – “So what if you weren’t afraid?”

He was quiet for a while and I could see that he was really trying to sort this all out. There was a glimmer in his eye when he said, “I would keep being there for my family. But I would tell them things about me they don’t know. I would share the lessons I’ve learned. I would make sure my grandson knows how to drive.”

That is what it will take for him not to be afraid of dying. It’s not a huge tweak, you see, in the way that he is already living his life.

You notice he didn’t have any grand plans like jumping out of an airplane. He just wants to be there for his family and to pass along as much of his wisdom and the lessons he’s learned as he can.  

Now that he knows this about himself and the way he wants to live his life, he can focus on doing just that. By being focused and purposeful, he is able to make decisions easier. He knows his goal. Now he is living it out.

What if you weren’t afraid of dying? How would you live your life? What would be different than the way you live it now?

❤️Coach Wendy

P.S.  If you are looking for community and connection, I invite you to join my private FB group Life-On Purpose. This is a community of individuals who are seeking to live their lives authentically and purposefully.

What If You Stopped Pretending That Everything Was Okay?

You have a routine and you do the same thing day in and day out.  Lately, though, something is different.  You have begun to look at your life, your routine and have noticed that it is no longer what you want.

You’ve begun to think – I would rather be doing something else.  I want to make an impact in this world.  I want to create.  I want to be living differently.   

You have no idea where to begin.  You have no idea what you want.  You have no idea who you are.   Change begins right here.  When you begin to see things differently.  When you begin to answer the question, “how are you,” honestly.  When you answer the question honestly to yourself first.

When you see a friend and they ask, “How are you?”, do you just smile and say, “Fine, and you?”

What if you stopped pretending that everything was okay?   What if you said what’s on your mind?

I’m ready for a change.  I’m not the same person I was.  I want to be happier.

When you do that, you connect with another person.  Possibly someone that can offer you some insight.  When you ask for help, you connect with community.  When you connect with community you begin to see things differently, to think differently and you gain traction and then you gain momentum. When you smile and say, “I’m fine,” when you really aren’t, you just stay stuck in the same place.

What if you stopped pretending that everything is fine?  What’s possible?

❤️Coach Wendy

P.S.  If you are looking for community and connection, I invite you to join my private FB group Life-On Purpose.  This is a community of individuals who are seeking to live their lives authentically and purposefully.

Overwhelmed and Not Enough or Grateful and Abundant?

Do you ever have so many wonderful ideas and opportunities that you are just so excited and try to do them all at the same time?  Oh I do. I’ve always been a whirlwind.

It’s served me well for many, many years.  I get a lot accomplished.  I also realize that even though I get a lot accomplished, I’m sometimes not quite sure just exactly what I’ve accomplished OR celebrated or enjoyed it.  I’ve jumped from one accomplishment onto the next.

I’m reminding myself to slow down.  Pace myself.  This is not a race. This is a journey to be savored.

I’ve just begun coaching a group of employees.  One of their core challenges is time.  They all say they don’t have enough of it.  And they are fixated on not having enough.  What I have been telling them (which may be too woo-woo) is that what you put your attention on you get more of and it grows.  Therefore, if you are putting your focus on not having enough time, guess what?  You will not have enough time. Instead, when you put your focus on, I have more than enough time, you seem to magically have enough.  But it’s not magic.  It’s the power of gratitude.

Then I found this photo on Facebook:

I’m going to share this with the group today, before our next group coaching call.  It might be hard for some to hear, but that’s where change begins.  When you feel uncomfortable.  That’s when you begin to get curious, ask questions and do something differently.  Like putting your attention toward abundance and gratitude.

What do you want to refocus your mindset around?  What do you want more of?

❤️Coach Wendy